i actually have blogs written out for these days .... on paper ...and will type them out tonight.
and oh yes, tex informed me that i "ganked up my comments"
i guess there's a flaw in the template - maybe i'll change it - but i like the way this one looks - so we'll see.
off to work.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
thurs. fri. sat
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Wednesday, June 3, 2009
ok.
so yesterday wasn't quite the rock star birthday i wanted .... at least while i was in it.
now i sit and look around the room.
i have cookies from stacey
i have flowers from tex
i had flowers from todd
i have cards of love from friends
i have new patio furniture
i had FANTASTIC pancakes with mom
i had a nice dinner with christine and her family
i got a hydranga plant from cherie.
i got TONS of phone calls and text messages
while i feel very sad about the breakup of me and todd - and the life i thought i was going to have...right now, in this moment i can recognize what i do have. ( which is very tenuous and subject to change at anytime ) right now i realize i'm rich in friends - and if todd doesn't love me in the way i need to be loved, guess what? i have tons of friends who do.
and i have an appointment with the doctor for new drugs next week
could be worse. but in this moment.
it's fine.
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009
so it was today.
i'm 39.
so far, 39 is awful.
i've let todd break my heart & ruin my day.
and i hate that.
and i really need NO, unity, suck it up, you're in charge comments.
so if you're thinking about that.
don't.
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Monday, June 1, 2009
t-minus 1
ah so today could have been bad - for about 3 minutes, it really was. dark. bad. and scary.
but then i got over it.
did a teeny bit of house work.
went to the pool for a short while ( want to feel the sun - not feel it's wrath )
went to supper with cherie and family - complete with game play alongs ...
checked the mail when i got home & had a card from christel and a great present from tex. made my day. funny - and project worthy .... all of this works towards making tomorrow better.
i actually spoke some to todd on the phone. wasn't terribly awkward, wasn't not awkward - but was ok.
tomorrow mom and i are headed to the original pancake house for pancakes - the world's most perfect food. and then off to a movie - hopefully some foreign language one where we'll have to read it - or or or - in a perfect world - a jane austen movie marathon.....a girl can dream
and and and when i came home tonight . clerks was on tv....could be a worse day
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